Do you ever get into such a frenzy over things, that silence from someone terrifies you more than actually doing something about your problem?
I do and I think it is down to the fact I am easily intimidated. Very easily intimidated. As loud and brash as I am, it is all a cover. In some cases, acting the idiot actually diverts attention away from me whilst being the centre of attention.
In a similar vein, I have always tried to approach authority figures BEFORE they approach me. I have always figured that in taking the initiative I can divert their attention away from anything I may or may not have done - and as such avoid any criticism or other negativity. In most cases, it’s not that I haven’t done something, just that the intimidation I feel from being asked questions terrfies me.
And therein lies the problem - the silence.
I can neither approach the person (why are they NOT speaking to me?) nor prepare myself for their approach…and I am still struggling to find a way to manage that!
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